God's Bird's make me Happy...

oh the day I've had... waking up angry with the world and everyone in it, taking a walk to clear my head which ended up making it that much worse, not doing any homework, family dinner where my mom decided to tell stories about me while I was at the table, and thenyouth group where everything came together... Do you ever find that God has a way of making things better and pulling people together?

look up the song called "Mary Poppin's Birds" bby Nathan Angelo... it made me happy today when I wasn't

Scared

In response to my last post and o he day I have had all I really want to say is that I am scared... I am scared of people, myself, change, no change, but mostly people. I have said before that I can't be myself because of many reason but it is because I am not scared what people's reaction will be but more scared to be myself in the first place. But when you spend so much time doing nothing you lose the physical/mental power to do anything. I hav spent so much time being scared that I am afraid that if I ever get over my fear I wont be able to do anything...

I guess I need to ask myself if being scared is worth anything at all. I never get in trouble, but rarely have fun... is anything worth it... YES being alive and spontaneous is worth anything and everything. I want so badly to be ok but is writing to the infinite places of the internet really helping?