Suprise!

Its like you walk into a room of all your "friends" and they have thrown you a suprise party! Except instead of being a good suprise its the kind of suprise that makes you want to literally stand up thrown your hands in the air and say FUCK you too!

From where I'm standing its looks like all of the people I thought were my friends decided that everytime they hang out from now on they were going to just not call me. I spent the night fighting against myself. I literally at one point had to sit on my hands so I wouldn't get up and leave. My heart wanted to stand up and walk home but my mind said no, and that they don't know whats going on in my head. I am worn out from fighting myself... I think its time to find a different opponent. Perhaps one of my former friends will do...